lonely

i sat here today and looked around me and noticed that alot inside seem to have this very "alone" look about them, They seem to be thinking and feeling that they are somehow alone in this world and i wonder how do you make that feeling go away. They all have their own problems that would make them feel that way but they all also have one thing in common, they are all servivours of something. They made it through the worst of the worst and are still here, some not in such good shape but here none the less. I stopped also to wonder why we were no longer in concilling and i asked Tyrone about it his answer was this " talking to a stranger is fine and yes it does help but when you have to repeatedly talk to a new person every couple of months and get them used to the idea of US as a system it just is notworth the trama of the switching factor of T's all the time" And i realized that yes that would make things worse when you have to keep re introducing yourself to a new person because the old one that you had just got use to left you once again holding your emotions in your hand. I believe the loneliness is also from the fact that we use to have 60-70 people on our friends list that we spoke to on a regular basis, But when we lost our internet for a long period of time we also seemed to lose those we use to call friends. In the small town that we live in we do not have anyone we would call "friend" all we have is our family and parts of mikes family that is all. Our closest "friend" lives 5 hours away by car. We have also been stuck in our apartment for almost 3 weeks straight because we do not have a vehicle as of now because it is broke. Walking is not an option due to our back and our knee it makes it almost impossible to walk any distance without severe pain afterward. It is odd that you can live in a system the size of ours and yet still feel lonely to the point where it becomes very depressing. This is just my obsevation and i thought i would write about it because well there is nothing else to do right at this moment plus i would like to get others input on it inside just to see if i am right or not and how they feel about it.

Juniper