just a post

well havent really seen much of anyone around lately....yesterday saw Raine and sera online but both marked as away and then they disappeared....mindy dont come on much if at all and well Sj seems to have vanished off the face of this earth. The above list is all the online people we talk to and in real life we talk to the b/f and very rare the family. so i guess now we know how sera was feeling when her schedule didnt meet anyone elses and she felt so alone. That is how we are starting to feel but with us for the most part (well the ones who sit front now) our life was based on silence it was safer that way and believe it still is. We at front dont mind the silence but others within who are lacking their communication with others are starting to feel the effects of it. They only trust a select few people and those people are gone or so it seems that way to them anyway. Holidays are rough and busy and not much time is slotted for much of anything except chr*stm*s many people feel the same way or worse so in that aspect we dont feel alone. Tyrone predicted this was going to happen because as read in a post somewhere not long ago when the chatrooms disappeared so did those who said they were friends for the most part. Everyone has also as said in a post "gotten a life of sorts" and that to plays a roll in this place and time we call "life" we have a life plan ahead but we are playing the waiting game right now and cant make a move till most likely next year then things may break for us for the good this time. But we have also been told not to get our hopes up to high incase things dont go as hopefully planned. the holidays are sneaking up very very fast and we finally a week before the day we got a "holiday safety plan" in effect for us as a system. It seems to be working for the time being and i am glad for that soon the stress will be gone and we can get back to our "normal" life and start working on the things ahead. Hope all is well with anyone who reads this post please take care and be safe

Wesley