what to do.....

well think about it, all day you yourself hear in your head yelling, screaming, fighting, arguing, ranting, moaning, bitching, chanting and the list goes on and on and on somemore. Yet some how through the mist of it all you manage to live day by day and come about to be "normal" to people. I in the years i have been around have come to notice that the less strangness people see the happier they are and the more content they are with their meaniless petty lives. if they find out you are on " weird" medication they look at you funny and walk away never to speak to you again, If they find out somehow you are in therapy they do the same thing. Because either their life was completly normal as a child or they have buried secrets they are not yet willing to let go of for fear they will be deemed "freakish" Most people are not willing to have an opened mind to things such as "abuse" "neglect" "r*tual abuse" "s*xual abuse" 9 times out of ten their answer is the same " thats not possible" or " they just want attention" yet deep down in the deepest depths of their soul they know better they just do not want to face the possibility that something like that COULD and CAN and better yet DID happen. people have been programmed from birth to run away from the things deemed as "weird" or "not normal" because that in itself could shatter their whole excistence and what they believe. I have learned to trust very few people outside the body and always keep my eyes and ears open. People can and will be cruel if given half a chance and the consiquences are more then likely fatal to the one on the recieaving end of the cruelty. We titled our blog the way we did because that is what we are to most a " secret" never to be found out for fear of hurt and abandonment and better yet more abuse. trust is an issue and being here is a life sentance for almost all of us because we fear that letting go of what we have held secret for so long could cause unmanagable reprecutions we could not fight against. this is mine and thank you for reading my opinion.

Anolynn