what a day

 well my name is Payne, I am 22 years old and well as you can hopefully guess by my name you know what i do for a living. There have been many changes in the last few months some good but some bad and my job is to absorb the bad ( lovely job dont you think ) Anyway the b-day was the worst of it and i have been out since trying to suck up all that was spilled on that day. Long tiring job but i do it because well that is my job. I cannot say i like my job but i can say it is better then where i came from and what i was doing there. ( tell more in later blog ) The birthday started out by Wolf waking up alone ( b/f was not in bed ) Use to that but what really got it going was someone ( i will not mention names ) Smacked the b/f in the face twice while we were sleeping, He got VERY angry about this and went to sleep on the couch, Wolf had no idea what had happened but the b/f sure filled her in when she went out to the kitchen. He was screaming at her about it and told her she better get out of his face before he ended the relationship for good. This upset her extremly and she sunk back inside. Genesis then surfaced and told the b/f to back off before bad things happened ( Tyrell ) and he walked away.We proceeded downstairs to do the laundry and the b/f came down to speak with us, Tyrone slipped front and told the b/f his best bet would be to back away and leave us alone for the time being until we settled down some. About an hour later the b/f came back and hugged me and that is when Wolf resurfaced and started to cry very very hard. I let that go on for about 15 minutes and then i slipped past her and regained control. Jordan then surfaced to feed the rat and noticed he was dragging himself across the cage and his eyes were full of this secreasion that happens when they are sick or stressed. Tyrell pulled Jordan in because he was crying and made arrangments for the rat to be put to sleep. That caused internal flare up amounst the outkasts because it was there pet and it was being taken away like their other one not but a week prior to the b-day. So that was that the rat was put to sleep and a wall was built excluding the outkasts from the whole world inner and outer. They built it and it is built of pain and distrust for everyone. So here i sit absorbing what i can and growing sicker by the day, Tyrone is calling Jake but i do doubt that he can help me i believe it has been to long. So this is me and that is what happen.

Payne