not to sure

well we are not to sure about today......for some reason it just did not feel like christmas should feel. There was an empety feeling that just would not go away all day it has been there, we went to the brothers house to watch our neices open their gifts and we were blah in feeling. There was a void there that just did not ease off. We thought maybe it was because we were so tired but as the day went on the feeling did not go away. We went and did our rounds to our brothers house and mikes sisters house then to the other sisters house then we came home to continue cooking our dinner. When we got back we sat with mike and opened all our gifts and yet with everything that we got the void was still there. We hugged and thanked mike for all he gave us and pasted on a smile yet it was fake. We cooked dinner and got everything together and then ate thought maybe it was because we had not eaten in a long while so once we were done we sat on the couch to watch some t.v and yet the voidness was still there. I went on a search to find the sorce and came up with nothing. It is all over inside there just seems to be no feeling at all anywhere except when it comes to Rain Tasha, She seems to be over experiencing feelings they seem to be going to an extreme with her. I have contacted Luther and he will be here shortly and maybe he can help us figure it out. Today we thought that everyone would be so happy with their gifts and such yet there was no emotion at all from anyone. It is a blank expression all around, Noone is really talking to each other and there is no emotion on anyones face except Rain's and hers are expressions of fear, anziety,stress, mistrust and sadness. The void has actually escalated since this morning and all is done and over with. So as of right now i am unsure of our next step but i will post when i have more news.

Robin